my passions

This entry is about something more serious out of me..
My passions. those crazy thing people might say it's worthless doing it..
I still remember when I was still in the primary and secondary school..
My passion on that time were painting, singing, playing musical instruments and many more..
I did all that without any worries like nothing else matter..
Now, I thought I was happy with my life, but the real thing is that I'm not.
I'm not enjoying myself at all. My childhood life was full of colors..
And as I grew older it's getting darker..
My passions were gone..
I'm dull, nerd and I can't be creative...
I just don't know why..

Really needs some time just to move a little bit backward~

(:

freedom = missing someone you love

hi..

March almost end and besides those tonnes of assignments, I still have time to wrote this crap..
Its almost 4 year I've been away from my family, including the semester breaks to be exact..

That's means I've been free about almost in that duration of time. I've never thought that freedom turn out to be missing someone you love. Shame on me!

There's lots of things left unspoken, forgot to tell them how much I've been missing them.

Everything sort of jumble up these days. Nothing much I can do. Anxiously waiting for April to come, cause it's that another semester breaks is coming. May I'm going for teaching practical. Graduation on October.

Can't wait for that.

Fairy Tales

I'm still in shock. Waking up this morning I see tonnes of cars and reporters surround my house. Seriously I'm clueless. My mom said there's someone I have to see. A lovely husband and wife.

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My whole body still shaking.. I couldn't even speak a word. I've been told that I'm from the royal family. They will be taken me away from my family. I've never thought that I'm a princess, seriously, who would have thought about it? My mom have never told me before. Every day is such a wonderful day. I'm in luxury..

heyy!! I'm Prince Frog~

Yet the best part is I will get married to a prince. Handsome one. Awesome. I wonder how cute our baby will be.

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Done reading?? What were you thinking? I'm a princess?? ya in fantasy. It's reality. Not even fiction story.No one get up from bed and find him/herself a prince/princess.

you'll remained frog if you are born as frog, 

ugly one!!

Wake up. Go to work, class or something worth it.. Stop dreaming, even in your sleep (if you can even control it)..

Luck won't come to you, unless you search for it. Face the fact  change and chase for your luck. No one will help you. They even laugh if you fall. You should get up and clean you own ass.

Life is like eating. Sometimes it sour, sweet, bitter, salty..But when all the taste mixed up together, it's just perfect. Perfect life is not necessarily good, but a good life is perfect~ 

HEALED

It's Thursday..Few days past by and my anger gone..
Lucky me I didn't do something stupid..
Well you know how stupid people can be when they are mad..
Thanks to this blog, and Twitter..
I manage to channel my anger somewhere else, thank God..
and thanks to my friends who's bare listening to my curse~

Tryin' Keeping My Head up

I've been hard to reach..I've been too long on my own..

Thing that never pleasant kept happening.. well I had no one to blame, when when I start blaming, it always end up blaming the person that I love. For now, I need to keep myself strong no matter what. People take blame.. Now it's my turn. No one knows me, except God. I'm not even a good slave, but He always with me..

Be  in my shoes, just to see what is like to be me, I'll be you, let's trade shoes..

Let them be them. I'm not them. Just Let ignorant  pretend  to  be one, because it's too hard to make them listen and understand..Shame on them..

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Settled things up instead of grieving somethings I shouldn't.. Better be this way :)

I love you mother and father

NOSY II

Dear Nosy people,

I don't even know what to say. You are such a pain in my ass. You know you can't do it, even the whole world know it, then why you have to show off that you can??

You don't even do your work..and because of you my marks deducted..and what make things worst? Things that you called 'editing' delete the important part of the slide? what the f***?? the best part the lecturer ask for it and then we realize you've cut it out...What a shame to have you on my group..

I gave you the easiest task in the world and you can't even make time to deal with it.. seriously..what are you??

No wonder no one wants you..you're such a jerk..

The Sam Tsui

Last year was a disaster for me, turn me upside down. This year should be the year that I gather all my strength or I might need all the luck in the world. hope these year turn out well. The semester has started. this means I'll be double up you guys more on this kind of content..Why??!! weren't you student suppose to have tonnes of works and assignment to do?...

Well, that us students~
we have plenty time to pampered our self rather than make time for homework..
be us, you'll know how it's feel..
That's totally awkward, what's the title again??


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The SAM TSUI..

well he is no one. In fact he's just someone you won't even notice when he's sitting next to you (he's gonna kill me), but at the moment my ears were kind of weird. The adrenalin flows like my body gonna burst..(over reacting am I?!!ahaha)  Why?

All songs covered by him was totally super damn good to me..It was like I've been given drugs or something..
It is just too hard to get rid of my earphones from my head nowadays~
like I've been given endorphin..ya I know..I'm totally of obsess him~


So, this is him..

His doing tonnes of covers that worth listening, and I'm promoting him like I've been paid to do so..hahaha
and ya, you should listen to his covers and not to mention, he also has some original songs made up by him and Kurt Schneider.

Definitely need to check out their channels on youtube.
 and that' s all..
bye~

Reality of being a Student

It's been a while..
I'm kinda busy at the moment..
Tonnes of works..
Price that I need to pay for being a student..
 Can't wait for my graduation next year~hooray!!

but, well...another semester ahead..
no big deals, 7 of it I've gone through...
remaining days might be treasured someday..
I know I'll missed it..hahha

bye~

Getting Dizzy~

It's been 3 days on a row staying up all night..
Finishing the 'unfinished' assignments..
having only 4 hours sleeping getting me piss off easily..
the headache isn't helping me at all..


my Apology to those who I had ignored..
prefer to kept myself silent rather cursing people...

bye~

Home vs Hell?? what the..??

Well this is basically my home at the moment. I learnt most things in my life here.
This place where I started thinking twice..
Place where I grew up too much, and learnt thing I shouldn't have learnt..
Place that's making me not to believe in people that surround me..
Place where I thought I've lost my trust, but I gain strength and learnt there's still hope..
 It's my home and hell..
Bittersweets, it's all here..
and I know, I won't be here forever..
Like some people says, love won't last forever, I need to leave this place..
somewhere, somehow,...

me ❤ my friends

Finally, I got on my real vacation with my beloved friends. We enjoy ourself like nothing else matter in this world. This weekend was like gaining me strength or recharging me from the heavy loads recently, though the loads haven't to seems going yet. The vacation is not what I would rather to speak about. What I wanted to emphasize here is that the moment I spare with my friends.

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Friends, is just only a word for someone who just read the word. But for me, it gives thousand of meanings. It comes almost after my family. They give me strength when it's needed. True friends are hard to resist. That's why I love them the most. 

My friend used to tell me that her friend before was a backstabber. Well for me, that friend of her does not even deserved the title 'friend' at all. She should just go to some place where no people exist. Real human being needs friends to live. Not just to live I mean, but to get alive. 

Start to appreciate your friends now, even for tiny things she did, cause they love you and by show your gratitude towards them is the way you show them your love~

 ❤❤❤❤

sing song sang before- i'm not okay by M to M

I'm having K Ballads fever recently.. Thanks to my beloved friend. And because of that I decided to make a cover version of I'm Not Okay from M to M..It's not perfect, listen to their version is better..I just playing around here. forgive me i sang badly and there's lots of technical problems..

okay now back to M to M. Don't get the wrong idea, cause there are not those girls you might think..They were Korean males band who consist of 3 guys that have the most beautiful vocals in ballads I think. They sang lots of OST for movies and Korean dramas.

For those who had no idea who are them, these are them :-

so, thats all..

bye~

Poseidon

I'm now watching Poseidon..The Korean drama..
Choi Si Won from super junior is undeniable the most handsome, sexy man I've ever met..


pardon? MET?

Met on the line.

Here's the pictures of him while on the set of making this drama..

cute right~
falling in love more and more~

almost faint every time he smile~

hope you guys enjoy this drama, as much as i enjoy it..

Reveal or not? You decide..

In real life,sometimes we have something to hide..maybe there's something that people need to hide, cause it might hurt people the less compared when you reveal it..
Therefore, there's no such a thing that people might hurt less if they now the truth. In fact, most people think they might hurt the less, but their action speaks the other ways if we reveal it.

For example, a girlfriend catch her boyfriend cheating on her. She said that she would hurt the less if the boyfriend just tell her to break up because he had someone else rather than caught him cheating this way~
But what if, the husband really did told her that they need to break up because he had someone else??
Well, you know what would happened.

Thus,we know anyhow, and anyway there are still people who might get hurt because of our action.. think carefully before act..

The Seasons..

u know what? I'm in flu mood~Damn!! It's been a week, and there's no sign that I'm recovering.
I'm here not to talk about my condition right now. Something very big had happened to me..
Happened to my mom actually..
Finally after 10 years, she had come to decision to get married again~ Woohoo!!
and the wedding ceremony was held on 19th  September 2011, and the reception was on 20th September..
Everything went smooth for me, except this flu.
And  now here I am again..

Pursuing my very own dream~

sing song sang before- winter child by Suzy Miss A

This song personally dedicated to my beloved friend.. upon request~LOL
She was born on the 4th May.. It's a bit late though.. but HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~
last final exam paper heading tomorrow~
good luck~

by the way if you don't really know who's exactly singing this song, it's her

Miss A Suzy~
song: Winter Child from Dream High

10 facts about guys~part 1

1. guys don't  need beautiful womens, but what they actually need is someone that can capture their heart. (when guys want you to dress up a little bit, he is not being womanizer, but he just want you to look good in your self).

2. guys hate being betrays. (even they are strong, selfish,harsh yet they are still weak~).

3. at certain moment he likes you, and after a second he forgot about you and always be with his friends.( This is normal, it doesn't means that you're not in his heart).

4. when he said “Yes, I don't understand you" it's means your thought and his thought is different. (it does not means you can't be together, but you just need to understand each other~).

5. sometimes, he is to busy playing with his friends, but when it's times to sleep he always think about how beautiful are you today while thinking how lucky he is to get you~

6. “what you're doing?” or “have you eat?” is the common things they asked if you are on the phone . (they are not gifted to throw a bombastic words, but they really wanted to know everything about you~)

7. when a guy fall for you, he will accepts everything about you even though you are the ugliest creature on the earth.(sometimes, he did give you advice for you to keep fit when you think you're fat, but he truly loves you.)

8. guys crazy to see your smile. (so, don't keep that sour face, smile and make him speechless.

9. guys will do anything to have you attention. (including telling you about his ex, even though it 's not necessary) 

10. guys don't like when you told them about your ex. (even he likes to told you the story of his ex, but it might create jealousy when you told him about your ex).

to be continued... :)

NOSY

People definitely have been in the situation where you need to stick to nosy people (soon if you don't)..

Well nosy people really make you fell annoying. Especially when they pretend  to know every single thing that happening in this world. I'm the type that don't really take note about people life. But when they pretend to know something while they have no idea about that thing and start telling something about that thing, its lessen the value of knowing that thing. If the value of knowing is lessen, it's mean you start to look down on people and telling your lies.

Nosy people is an arrogant people, because they won't admitted that they have lesser value of knowing. They seem lack of love from or towards someone that's why when they pretend to know something, they think people would give more attention to them but instead of attention, they also gain hates and start to annoy peoples around them. And sooner or later, they might notice they have no friends anymore.

So to those people who are nosy, starting to be, or about to be, please stop that because no one likes it.. believe me~

The Addiction-Taeyeon SNSD

Well obviously from the title, I'm gonna write about my current addiction.. Seriously I've never thought that girl from SNSD can sing this well.I've been attacked by one of the YouTuber because I'm saying these before. Don't get me wrong. I'm not underestimating these girls, but I just  get the chance to listen to them recently. I like songs that are in slow pace melancholic type. I only thought SNSD were singing only dance types songs, that's the reasons why I don't really listen to them. I've watched Beethoven Virus starring kinda favorite actor Jang Geun Seuk. There is one OST that  were sang by a girl. I keep listening to that song, and I come across to Google for that singer. And unpredictably it's Tea Yeon from SNSD. From that only I know that she has a really  angelic voice.
  if you still can't figure out who she is, here's the photo of her..

here is one of the latest song from her...titled Different featuring Kim Bum Soo..

~the thought~part_3-sing a song sang before..

Today, I thought of singing a song to put on this page.
Something that I find it really useful. LOL.. Just kidding.. I just wanted to reveal the song of THAT WOMEN from Secret Garden in my version. The original singer is Baek Ji Young..let's Google the image...............................................


so here she is :

Baek Ji Young

The song is so my type~
I found it very calm when listening to it, even I couldn't understand a word from it but I still love  it..
There is also the man version called THAT MAN sang by Hyun Bin~

Hyun Bin oppa~

well now is the exciting part~~~hahhahaha, for me only =.=


version sang by me!!
you can simply press STOP button if you don't want to hear my version..

well this is my "a bit off" version..
It might sound a bit weird because I'm not Korean..
Just bare with it~


and with no back up music and sort..
fell free to share yours..
Bye~