Reality of being a Student

It's been a while..
I'm kinda busy at the moment..
Tonnes of works..
Price that I need to pay for being a student..
 Can't wait for my graduation next year~hooray!!

but, well...another semester ahead..
no big deals, 7 of it I've gone through...
remaining days might be treasured someday..
I know I'll missed it..hahha

bye~

Getting Dizzy~

It's been 3 days on a row staying up all night..
Finishing the 'unfinished' assignments..
having only 4 hours sleeping getting me piss off easily..
the headache isn't helping me at all..


my Apology to those who I had ignored..
prefer to kept myself silent rather cursing people...

bye~

Home vs Hell?? what the..??

Well this is basically my home at the moment. I learnt most things in my life here.
This place where I started thinking twice..
Place where I grew up too much, and learnt thing I shouldn't have learnt..
Place that's making me not to believe in people that surround me..
Place where I thought I've lost my trust, but I gain strength and learnt there's still hope..
 It's my home and hell..
Bittersweets, it's all here..
and I know, I won't be here forever..
Like some people says, love won't last forever, I need to leave this place..
somewhere, somehow,...

me ❤ my friends

Finally, I got on my real vacation with my beloved friends. We enjoy ourself like nothing else matter in this world. This weekend was like gaining me strength or recharging me from the heavy loads recently, though the loads haven't to seems going yet. The vacation is not what I would rather to speak about. What I wanted to emphasize here is that the moment I spare with my friends.

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Friends, is just only a word for someone who just read the word. But for me, it gives thousand of meanings. It comes almost after my family. They give me strength when it's needed. True friends are hard to resist. That's why I love them the most. 

My friend used to tell me that her friend before was a backstabber. Well for me, that friend of her does not even deserved the title 'friend' at all. She should just go to some place where no people exist. Real human being needs friends to live. Not just to live I mean, but to get alive. 

Start to appreciate your friends now, even for tiny things she did, cause they love you and by show your gratitude towards them is the way you show them your love~

 ❤❤❤❤

sing song sang before- i'm not okay by M to M

I'm having K Ballads fever recently.. Thanks to my beloved friend. And because of that I decided to make a cover version of I'm Not Okay from M to M..It's not perfect, listen to their version is better..I just playing around here. forgive me i sang badly and there's lots of technical problems..

okay now back to M to M. Don't get the wrong idea, cause there are not those girls you might think..They were Korean males band who consist of 3 guys that have the most beautiful vocals in ballads I think. They sang lots of OST for movies and Korean dramas.

For those who had no idea who are them, these are them :-

so, thats all..

bye~

Poseidon

I'm now watching Poseidon..The Korean drama..
Choi Si Won from super junior is undeniable the most handsome, sexy man I've ever met..


pardon? MET?

Met on the line.

Here's the pictures of him while on the set of making this drama..

cute right~
falling in love more and more~

almost faint every time he smile~

hope you guys enjoy this drama, as much as i enjoy it..

Reveal or not? You decide..

In real life,sometimes we have something to hide..maybe there's something that people need to hide, cause it might hurt people the less compared when you reveal it..
Therefore, there's no such a thing that people might hurt less if they now the truth. In fact, most people think they might hurt the less, but their action speaks the other ways if we reveal it.

For example, a girlfriend catch her boyfriend cheating on her. She said that she would hurt the less if the boyfriend just tell her to break up because he had someone else rather than caught him cheating this way~
But what if, the husband really did told her that they need to break up because he had someone else??
Well, you know what would happened.

Thus,we know anyhow, and anyway there are still people who might get hurt because of our action.. think carefully before act..

The Seasons..

u know what? I'm in flu mood~Damn!! It's been a week, and there's no sign that I'm recovering.
I'm here not to talk about my condition right now. Something very big had happened to me..
Happened to my mom actually..
Finally after 10 years, she had come to decision to get married again~ Woohoo!!
and the wedding ceremony was held on 19th  September 2011, and the reception was on 20th September..
Everything went smooth for me, except this flu.
And  now here I am again..

Pursuing my very own dream~

sing song sang before- winter child by Suzy Miss A

This song personally dedicated to my beloved friend.. upon request~LOL
She was born on the 4th May.. It's a bit late though.. but HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~
last final exam paper heading tomorrow~
good luck~

by the way if you don't really know who's exactly singing this song, it's her

Miss A Suzy~
song: Winter Child from Dream High

10 facts about guys~part 1

1. guys don't  need beautiful womens, but what they actually need is someone that can capture their heart. (when guys want you to dress up a little bit, he is not being womanizer, but he just want you to look good in your self).

2. guys hate being betrays. (even they are strong, selfish,harsh yet they are still weak~).

3. at certain moment he likes you, and after a second he forgot about you and always be with his friends.( This is normal, it doesn't means that you're not in his heart).

4. when he said “Yes, I don't understand you" it's means your thought and his thought is different. (it does not means you can't be together, but you just need to understand each other~).

5. sometimes, he is to busy playing with his friends, but when it's times to sleep he always think about how beautiful are you today while thinking how lucky he is to get you~

6. “what you're doing?” or “have you eat?” is the common things they asked if you are on the phone . (they are not gifted to throw a bombastic words, but they really wanted to know everything about you~)

7. when a guy fall for you, he will accepts everything about you even though you are the ugliest creature on the earth.(sometimes, he did give you advice for you to keep fit when you think you're fat, but he truly loves you.)

8. guys crazy to see your smile. (so, don't keep that sour face, smile and make him speechless.

9. guys will do anything to have you attention. (including telling you about his ex, even though it 's not necessary) 

10. guys don't like when you told them about your ex. (even he likes to told you the story of his ex, but it might create jealousy when you told him about your ex).

to be continued... :)

NOSY

People definitely have been in the situation where you need to stick to nosy people (soon if you don't)..

Well nosy people really make you fell annoying. Especially when they pretend  to know every single thing that happening in this world. I'm the type that don't really take note about people life. But when they pretend to know something while they have no idea about that thing and start telling something about that thing, its lessen the value of knowing that thing. If the value of knowing is lessen, it's mean you start to look down on people and telling your lies.

Nosy people is an arrogant people, because they won't admitted that they have lesser value of knowing. They seem lack of love from or towards someone that's why when they pretend to know something, they think people would give more attention to them but instead of attention, they also gain hates and start to annoy peoples around them. And sooner or later, they might notice they have no friends anymore.

So to those people who are nosy, starting to be, or about to be, please stop that because no one likes it.. believe me~

The Addiction-Taeyeon SNSD

Well obviously from the title, I'm gonna write about my current addiction.. Seriously I've never thought that girl from SNSD can sing this well.I've been attacked by one of the YouTuber because I'm saying these before. Don't get me wrong. I'm not underestimating these girls, but I just  get the chance to listen to them recently. I like songs that are in slow pace melancholic type. I only thought SNSD were singing only dance types songs, that's the reasons why I don't really listen to them. I've watched Beethoven Virus starring kinda favorite actor Jang Geun Seuk. There is one OST that  were sang by a girl. I keep listening to that song, and I come across to Google for that singer. And unpredictably it's Tea Yeon from SNSD. From that only I know that she has a really  angelic voice.
  if you still can't figure out who she is, here's the photo of her..

here is one of the latest song from her...titled Different featuring Kim Bum Soo..

~the thought~part_3-sing a song sang before..

Today, I thought of singing a song to put on this page.
Something that I find it really useful. LOL.. Just kidding.. I just wanted to reveal the song of THAT WOMEN from Secret Garden in my version. The original singer is Baek Ji Young..let's Google the image...............................................


so here she is :

Baek Ji Young

The song is so my type~
I found it very calm when listening to it, even I couldn't understand a word from it but I still love  it..
There is also the man version called THAT MAN sang by Hyun Bin~

Hyun Bin oppa~

well now is the exciting part~~~hahhahaha, for me only =.=


version sang by me!!
you can simply press STOP button if you don't want to hear my version..

well this is my "a bit off" version..
It might sound a bit weird because I'm not Korean..
Just bare with it~


and with no back up music and sort..
fell free to share yours..
Bye~

The Thought_Part_2-Dull life??

I think my life is so dull but yet still interesting..
People might think, what the heck with this girl..LOL! 
Here's the thing, I found it interesting to do things that other people think it's boring.. Personally I really don't know why..
Maybe it's challenging?? Me myself couldn't figure it out why..There's no particular reason for it..
Because of my interest, people always think that I'm weirdo, but I don't really think it's a big deal.. 
As long as I didn't hurts others feeling, I think that should be okay..
I've seen lots of people doing things that they like even though it looks like they are suffering..
What I'm trying to emphases is that, if you like something, just do it even you're looking like a dumb..
But don't do something that going to ruin you..Love yourself darling, because no one will but you..


Lots  of teenagers addicted to drugs, gangs, bully, and lots of negative stuff that  they fine it's cool. Well I'm no one in your life,you shouldn't listen to me and I might told you wrong advices. Instead listening to me, why don't you listen to yourself. Are you going to be like that until the end?? If you have parents or siblings, who are going to took care of them if it's not you? Don't you be responsible for that? Is there anything else you should do besides involved with the negative things?

People around them should more supportive to them if they are to change. I've seen lots of situation where people that involved with 'This things' could turned back because they said society member won't accept them. Please, I'm begging for you guys to be a little bit more concern about them. Give them hopes and chance to make a change. They are still human being. Show your love, let them feel it. Pray for them to change.

the heart breaking

Even the wind is blowing, it still can't make the flame in my heart goes out...
Even the rain is pouring, it's still can't hide my tears..
Even the thunder is striking, it cannot be compared to my weeping..
Even the sky is blue, it can't show my sorrow..

My heart broke and ripped into pieces as you leave..
It's been too long for me to wear this smile..
The smiling face of me, seems fading away..
how long I can bare this?

I'm loosing my strength now..
Please be by my side..
Share your strength with me, so that we both can strike trough thick and thin..

~the craziness~

The title of this week's entry is taken from the word crazy (we know bitch!!) hahahha...


 I love to eat spicy food. Me as Malaysian really loves to eat spicy foods,, but most of the Chinese can't handle it.
But that's not the point I try to emphasize here..All I wanted to emphasis is my craziness toward spicy foods.. I really love it.. why???!!! 


I don't really know what the reason are, but when the taste of spiciness burst into your mouth the feeling is just like yours having you first baby( what the heck!!)..maybe nearly the same when you burst into tears I mean..hahahha

And because of my craziness, my beloved mom made this for me so that I can eat spicy foods every day when I'm not at home..


I eat  this with almost all the dish that I have every day..Even with the instant noodles..
My sisters often remind me of not taking these spicy foods, because I might got hemoroid (google it!!) later..But still I think I can handle it, because the meal is just not encouraging to eat if it is not spicy..

the best week~

After the Chaos of Chinese New year last week, I come back to school with an open heart..

I need to prepare for my presentation, and test 1 of mechanics statistics. Unfortunately, my legs got hurt suddenly.. It's so hurt, especially after I woke up from my sleep..I take 2 tablet of pain killer, which I need to take 1 tablet only, and the pain goes after few hours..

 but it's not the point.. I love this week because after I done with my presentation, I got complement from my lecturer..WHAT??!! My other fellow course mate got all the criticism and complain, but mine?? My last minutes work is  always the best..hahah, I just got my First Test result for Electromechanics.. once again, A???!!!  Alhamdulillah~Thank God..

I got test after this.. Need to warm up my mind..

xoxo

Beauty

We definitely have heard about this word before..How you define beauty?
The definition of beauty definitely same to some people, what how you measure beauty exactly?
 Some guys said he want girls with perfect figure, and they would declare the girl beautiful if that girl have perfect figure that they wish.
But some of them prefer "a next door girl', enough for them if that girl have a kind heart. This what we call beauty is subjective..
We interpret it differently. But people that think that they are lack of 'beauty factor' might find that they have really low self-confident too.
It happen to me recently. I know I'm not that perfect beauty pigeon competition and sort, but when people mention about it I felt really down. They might not purposely said that but you know, my heart still touch because of that., but know I learnt that no matter what I need to bear with it. The best thing is just to live and let go.
I'm growing older now.
No matter what I can't change what people think, but I can change the way I feel. I appreciate what I have now. I can't imagine, what might happened to me if I'm not like what I am today..
I am blessed.
Thank God..

tears that won't stop flowing inside~

Another episode in my life that making me feel like hitting by a car so many times..
I always being the subject to be blamed on of any problem that occurs.. 
I love them so much, I would trade my life for them to be happy, but I think all my sacrifice is just not worth it..
I'm so lonely here, no one knows that. All I need is just supports from the people I call family.. I've lost once and I couldn't afford to lost more.. The pain won't fade away..Please don't say such word, I know I'm useless..i Can't fulfill what you want, believe me, someday I'll repay you.. I know what I've done cannot be compared to what you've done, but please understand me... I'm still striving forward because of you..
When people see me, they thought I was always happy and lighten up their day, but I'm dying inside..I've been keeping to many sad thing to myself..I won't let anyone know about it, especially you..I think I'm about to burst anytime soon..Stop giving me me such pressure..You had someone to rely on, but i have no one..believed me, no one..I wish I could lean my back on you..I also wish that I need to worry anything but myself,but it's only still wishes..Wishes that never coming true..
What I can only do now is just keep my tears flow until there's no tears anymore.
I still need to pretend to laugh even I'm in the mist critical feeling right now.. 
I'll hide it so that no one see my tears and I want no body to know it..
I'll make everyone happy, and I won't let you to worry about myself..
I'm a big girl now..
and Big Girl Don't Cry-Fergie..
I mean don't cry in front of others..

~The Year~

It has been a week we enter the new year called 2011..
It's not that late to wish you guys a happy new year, and hope this year 2011 will be a blessing year to all the people in the world..

Celebrating  it is a must for me..
To go and be apart of this madness it such a pleasure..
The new year has started,
It also means semester has started for others, but I started it earlier..
No one here when I'm here..
Now, when there's plenty of people I started to feel the heat and vibration..
I'm trying to be positive this semester..
I'm tired with my assignment, but I'll keep updating my status on Facebook and tweets via twitter..

Being apart from my family really test me personally, but I'll try....
This is the place that I can call HOME besides my real home..