The Thought_Part_2-Dull life??

I think my life is so dull but yet still interesting..
People might think, what the heck with this girl..LOL! 
Here's the thing, I found it interesting to do things that other people think it's boring.. Personally I really don't know why..
Maybe it's challenging?? Me myself couldn't figure it out why..There's no particular reason for it..
Because of my interest, people always think that I'm weirdo, but I don't really think it's a big deal.. 
As long as I didn't hurts others feeling, I think that should be okay..
I've seen lots of people doing things that they like even though it looks like they are suffering..
What I'm trying to emphases is that, if you like something, just do it even you're looking like a dumb..
But don't do something that going to ruin you..Love yourself darling, because no one will but you..


Lots  of teenagers addicted to drugs, gangs, bully, and lots of negative stuff that  they fine it's cool. Well I'm no one in your life,you shouldn't listen to me and I might told you wrong advices. Instead listening to me, why don't you listen to yourself. Are you going to be like that until the end?? If you have parents or siblings, who are going to took care of them if it's not you? Don't you be responsible for that? Is there anything else you should do besides involved with the negative things?

People around them should more supportive to them if they are to change. I've seen lots of situation where people that involved with 'This things' could turned back because they said society member won't accept them. Please, I'm begging for you guys to be a little bit more concern about them. Give them hopes and chance to make a change. They are still human being. Show your love, let them feel it. Pray for them to change.

the heart breaking

Even the wind is blowing, it still can't make the flame in my heart goes out...
Even the rain is pouring, it's still can't hide my tears..
Even the thunder is striking, it cannot be compared to my weeping..
Even the sky is blue, it can't show my sorrow..

My heart broke and ripped into pieces as you leave..
It's been too long for me to wear this smile..
The smiling face of me, seems fading away..
how long I can bare this?

I'm loosing my strength now..
Please be by my side..
Share your strength with me, so that we both can strike trough thick and thin..

~the craziness~

The title of this week's entry is taken from the word crazy (we know bitch!!) hahahha...


 I love to eat spicy food. Me as Malaysian really loves to eat spicy foods,, but most of the Chinese can't handle it.
But that's not the point I try to emphasize here..All I wanted to emphasis is my craziness toward spicy foods.. I really love it.. why???!!! 


I don't really know what the reason are, but when the taste of spiciness burst into your mouth the feeling is just like yours having you first baby( what the heck!!)..maybe nearly the same when you burst into tears I mean..hahahha

And because of my craziness, my beloved mom made this for me so that I can eat spicy foods every day when I'm not at home..


I eat  this with almost all the dish that I have every day..Even with the instant noodles..
My sisters often remind me of not taking these spicy foods, because I might got hemoroid (google it!!) later..But still I think I can handle it, because the meal is just not encouraging to eat if it is not spicy..

the best week~

After the Chaos of Chinese New year last week, I come back to school with an open heart..

I need to prepare for my presentation, and test 1 of mechanics statistics. Unfortunately, my legs got hurt suddenly.. It's so hurt, especially after I woke up from my sleep..I take 2 tablet of pain killer, which I need to take 1 tablet only, and the pain goes after few hours..

 but it's not the point.. I love this week because after I done with my presentation, I got complement from my lecturer..WHAT??!! My other fellow course mate got all the criticism and complain, but mine?? My last minutes work is  always the best..hahah, I just got my First Test result for Electromechanics.. once again, A???!!!  Alhamdulillah~Thank God..

I got test after this.. Need to warm up my mind..

xoxo

Beauty

We definitely have heard about this word before..How you define beauty?
The definition of beauty definitely same to some people, what how you measure beauty exactly?
 Some guys said he want girls with perfect figure, and they would declare the girl beautiful if that girl have perfect figure that they wish.
But some of them prefer "a next door girl', enough for them if that girl have a kind heart. This what we call beauty is subjective..
We interpret it differently. But people that think that they are lack of 'beauty factor' might find that they have really low self-confident too.
It happen to me recently. I know I'm not that perfect beauty pigeon competition and sort, but when people mention about it I felt really down. They might not purposely said that but you know, my heart still touch because of that., but know I learnt that no matter what I need to bear with it. The best thing is just to live and let go.
I'm growing older now.
No matter what I can't change what people think, but I can change the way I feel. I appreciate what I have now. I can't imagine, what might happened to me if I'm not like what I am today..
I am blessed.
Thank God..

tears that won't stop flowing inside~

Another episode in my life that making me feel like hitting by a car so many times..
I always being the subject to be blamed on of any problem that occurs.. 
I love them so much, I would trade my life for them to be happy, but I think all my sacrifice is just not worth it..
I'm so lonely here, no one knows that. All I need is just supports from the people I call family.. I've lost once and I couldn't afford to lost more.. The pain won't fade away..Please don't say such word, I know I'm useless..i Can't fulfill what you want, believe me, someday I'll repay you.. I know what I've done cannot be compared to what you've done, but please understand me... I'm still striving forward because of you..
When people see me, they thought I was always happy and lighten up their day, but I'm dying inside..I've been keeping to many sad thing to myself..I won't let anyone know about it, especially you..I think I'm about to burst anytime soon..Stop giving me me such pressure..You had someone to rely on, but i have no one..believed me, no one..I wish I could lean my back on you..I also wish that I need to worry anything but myself,but it's only still wishes..Wishes that never coming true..
What I can only do now is just keep my tears flow until there's no tears anymore.
I still need to pretend to laugh even I'm in the mist critical feeling right now.. 
I'll hide it so that no one see my tears and I want no body to know it..
I'll make everyone happy, and I won't let you to worry about myself..
I'm a big girl now..
and Big Girl Don't Cry-Fergie..
I mean don't cry in front of others..

~The Year~

It has been a week we enter the new year called 2011..
It's not that late to wish you guys a happy new year, and hope this year 2011 will be a blessing year to all the people in the world..

Celebrating  it is a must for me..
To go and be apart of this madness it such a pleasure..
The new year has started,
It also means semester has started for others, but I started it earlier..
No one here when I'm here..
Now, when there's plenty of people I started to feel the heat and vibration..
I'm trying to be positive this semester..
I'm tired with my assignment, but I'll keep updating my status on Facebook and tweets via twitter..

Being apart from my family really test me personally, but I'll try....
This is the place that I can call HOME besides my real home..

~remained unnoticeable~

Seriously, I like myself these way..
I just don't know why..
being able to just say almost anything without thinking about others feeling..
I can share almost anything..
So blessed~

The Addiction

I still remember the years that I become addicted to the Japanese drama and movies.I was only 11 years old at that time... Some of the kid at my age still playing around in the playground and sort..I'm the type that like to stay at home..So, my time always passed by just watching television. I can't really remember the title of the first drama, but the one who starring the movie was Takuya Kimura.. He was an artist that painting.something..
Then, I've never forgot to watch it every single day..The dramas that I had watch were Beautiful Life, With Love, Beach  boys, Long Vacation,Great Teacher Onizuka, Narita Devorce and more..
People that know me from my childhood would definitely know my addiction..My family especially my mom and sisters. They get used to it already..At that time actually, this Japanese and Korean drama don't really caught any Malaysian attention..So I would say myself a pioneer of watching Japanese and Korean Drama..
They have this Spanish soap fever..why in the world i think that Spanish thing that were broadcast in Malaysia is so lame.. heheh, sorry really not a fan of it..
Until now I still addicted to Japanese and Korean thing..No cure for it, and I don't think it need one..heheh

this drama make me cry on the first episode..hehe

加油!!

I got tones of work to do now, but I don't really know where should I start.

So I decided to just let the time passed through..I don't know what the heck I'm doing now..

Really need some encouragement..

Take deep breath.......................

Let it go...

OK!!

加油!!

(jia you!!means add oil..haha, interpret this yourself )

fighting!!

gambadeh!!!

Done for today!!

Better start my work now..

or else I'm gonna suffer then..

The Day of My Life - Disappointment =.=

So sleepy after the long journey to come back to the place I don't really like..
I just check my examination result, the result..ermmm...
Disappointed...
The one I thought would bring JOY to me just giving me the PAIN..


Today also the day I need to do my final year project, even the day of graduation is still far away..
but out of nothing something happened thats making my day not working so smooth , and i can't even start my work~..
eerrmm..


whoa!!! there's more!!!


I just had a new hair cut..exciting isn't it??
but it turn out to be the most hideous,ugliest and bla bla bla hair cut in the world..I'm getting famous because of it!..


Maybe that's what is life is all about..
it just goes out of nowhere and when we realize, that just the path thats lean in front of us.. 
All I need to do now is a new kick start..let bygone be bygone..me??
Just need someone to brighten up my day...

`THE WAR'

As the semester break is approaching,we as a student need to face something up..

As our parents anxiously waiting for us to get home, we are all waiting horrifyingly for the battle..

I'm not emphasizing about those war that happening in certain part of the world.. but the battle between us, the college student and 'the examination'...


I'm still curios why some of us think that examination purpose is to torture student..It's just not fair to those who has created exam on the first place..HAHAH!!


Just think..
If we seriously understand what the heck that our lecturer is mumbling in front of the lecturer hall, it won't be a problem for us to answer correctly, even though the question in the exam sheet is a killer one..




After certain paper is over, my friends always asked me

"Can't you answer all the question?"

Proudly my answer is "yes!!"

"but i'm just not sure whether it's correct or not"..


I couldn't help myself to let the answer sheet empty..
I will write anything that I remembered and try to relate in to the question, even though it's look real dump..
HAHAH..


It just the way i did it..


and how you did??


I'll let you answer it..


So..


so-long..


adiós amigos..

~the k'I'ck start~

For the beginning of this blog, I'll let you know a little bit about myself..

I'm just a normal human being that often make mistakes..
Just like you~
I eat~
I sleep~
I get hurt~
I hurt people~

I apologise ~

I repeat the same mistakes~
I have Family that cares about me~
I need friend~
my friends are the most precious treasure~

I also learnt that  it is not easy to satisfy people’s heart and needs..
I try to fulfil their needs, but I try not to be their puppet as well..
I love doing thing on my own..but I'm awesome as a teammate (~not trying to sell myself here..heheh:-)~)
 and last but not least please feel free to read my post..
I might not be posting anything at the moment cause I'm stuck with the Exam that are coming soon~
Really need revision right now..